Power

It's interesting how when we go through something that causes us to be vulnerable, we feel weak. 

I mean, at least for me. 

For so long I had been that sarcastic, hard-hearted person who would hold everything inside until the boiling point. Until one particular season in my life, when God began to show me some of my character defects. Which after praying crazy bold prayers asking God to show me my heart, I should've been more prepared for the dirtiness of it. But, I wasn't. 
In this season, I had to deal with a lot, but one thing that really changed me from the whole season was that from a past relationship I was in, the guy wasn't ever really honest with me about anything, and because of it I had basically promised myself that in any other relationship, friendships, family, boys, any of them. I would be 100% honest. About everything. As uncomfortable as it is. I would just bear the terribly awkward moment and do it. Forever. 

So, in this past relationship that I have just gotten out of or whatever you call it, 
I've been dealing with feeling weak, or seeming weak to others. 
And I definitely believe it's because to be vulnerable, calls for humility, and humility is seen as "weak" in this day and age. Which is so sad, because when we're vulnerable, it creates clarity. 
There is no more confusion in any situation. It's all out on the table. All the cards are on the table. The guessing game is over. And clarity brings freedom. We all desire freedom. But until we're able to be humble enough to be vulnerable, we will always cage ourselves in and be slaves to our own minds, battles of confusion, and even insecurity from lack of knowledge. 

So in this awful place of feeling weak, the Holy Spirit began to remind me of this scripture that I had been rolling around in my head for a week or two, 
For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.  2 Timothy 1:7

Don't be scared to be honest with people. Don't be afraid to be vulnerable. 
Because we have not been given a spirit of fear. 

But of power. 
To not feel weak. It is a tactic of  the enemy to cause us to feel weak. 
Love. 
To love outrageously without fear. Love is worth every ounce of pain. 
And a sound mind. 
Vulnerability creates clarity. 
Don't allow the enemy to clog your mind. 
God is not a God of confusion, but of order.

Vulnerability is worth it. I promise.