Boldness of a lion

"How bold one gets when sure of being loved."

Photography by Abigail Williams 

Last Wednesday night I had a crazy dream.

In the first part of my dream I was in my car, and others around me from my school were in their cars as well. Our cars were protecting us from this storm, and I looked outside of my car and noticed a couple at my school, and I thought, “They are so cute”.

My dream changed,

And I’m standing in this huge, tacky, pale-yellow room.

And there is this stage, which is taking up half the room, and there is no one on the floor but everyone is standing on this stage... around 80 people.

As we’re all on this stage, I have the microphone and I’m praying.

I feel in my dream that I’m supposed to pray that there would be a shift in the atmosphere of the nations.   

So I start to pray that, and when I get to the word shift… it’s like everyone and everything on earth and Heaven yells SHIFT at the same time.

Then I look up in my dream and there is this commotion across the stage with this little boy (Probably 10-12 y/o) and groups of people are pulling him along with them.

And since I’m praying, I’ve decided to not pay much attention because I didn’t want to lose my train of thought.

But, as I glance at the boy, I’m all of a sudden standing right in front of him.

And his face starts to distort (I’ve seen way too many scary movies in my past) and I know I’m supposed to cast out a demon.

But I’m paralyzed in fear and lacking confidence to do anything.

I wake up and feel a weighty presence holding me down to my bed.

And I’ve felt this before and I know that the only thing that makes it leave is Jesus. 

So I start declaring His name and His blood out loud.

So, I did that until it left.

When I came to reality I text my mom (it was 3 AM) and she actually responded saying she was awake and had just been praying about a situation that I had been struggling with.

And in my dream, I know that I couldn’t cast out this demon because I had lost my confidence because of this particular struggle.

So that was a horrifying dream.

A NIGHTMARE.

The next weekend, we have a conference at my church.

And the last night of conference, Sean Smith, an incredible speaker, comes and shares this encounter he has back in his beginning years as a minister with this kid possessed by a demon.

Totally horrifying since I had just had this dream 3 days beforehand.

So the next day (Sunday) I’m doing one of my friends hair, and my mom, my roommate and her friend is over, and we’re all just having a good time.

My neighbor, who also is my school mate comes knocking on my door.

I open it and she goes, 

“Ronna, can I talk to you?” 

in the most fearful shaky voice I’ve ever heard.

And I’m thinking, oh okay, she must have a family issue or something like that and just needs some advice.

And I start to walk out the door and as I do she grabs my hand and is like 

“I need you to go into my apartment”.

I stop dead in my tracks and say “WHY?”

And all I can think of is I’m about to die.

She is literally going to lock me in her apartment and kill me.

Because, she is crying, shaking, scared, and I don’t know why.

I don’t know what’s in her apartment.

And I am 100% NOT going in there.

All I know is she is ATTEMPTING TO MAKE me go in this apartment and she’s all distraught.

I'm walking into my death. 

That's all i'm thinking.

I"M TERRIFIED.

Finally she calms down enough to explain to me what was going on, she begins to explain that God had been giving her a lot of revelation in spiritual warfare. 

And how she had seen a dark figure pass her in her apartment and was trying to make it leave but it wouldn’t and she asked God why it wouldn’t leave and He told her to go and get me.

So I’m freaking out at this point.

After my dream, Sean Smith's sermon, and now this.

She has me shaking about as intensely as she is.

And I even mention to her that I could go grab my mom and get some backup.

But I knew in my spirit that I couldn’t, that God wanted me to do it.

So I looked at her and scared to death on the inside said, 

“Before I go get anyone, I’m going to pray for you and break fear.”

And I begin to pray and the moment I declared that perfect love casts out all fear, tangible peace filled the air.

I physically felt the atmosphere change.

Boldness rose up and I was like,

 “Okay, lets go.”

So we started to walk to her front door and it was shut, and a small dose of fear started to creep back on me and I stopped at the door and started to declare every prayer I could think of. 

Rebuking every demon, sending out every angel, pleading the blood of Jesus.

But as I did, I could feel the Holy Spirit roaring like a lion inside of me.

I felt Holy Spirit boldness rise up inside me.

And we walked in her apartment and started to declare and pray in the Holy Spirit.

As we’re praying I look towards her back door, and I see this dark round shadow go out her back door.

I continue to pray and claim the Kingdom of God in her apartment and the whole entire atmosphere changes immediately.

And there was one statement I made while praying that stood out to me; 

I said, 

“How dare you mess with the children of God?”

And when I said it, it shot through me like electricity.

Even thinking of it today all I could think about was this quote,

“How bold one gets when sure of being loved.”

That was what happened in that apartment.

When you rest in the fact that God is for you, God is your Father, you are His, He is yours, He’s given you everything you need, He’s given you all authority, He’s with you and IN you, the Lion, Alpha and Omega is IN YOU, the Holy Spirit is INSIDE YOU.

Boldness just bubbles out like a flood.

But not because of anything I did or will ever do, 

but because of everything HE is.

He is the true God.

He is the ONLY God.

He is the only Way.

He is the only salvation.

He is our only hope.

He is our savior.

He is our safety.

 He is our defender.

His name.

His blood.

His cross.

He alone.

Jesus Christ.